Alright, so it's been a while and I feel like I have some apologizing to do.
As I sit here in my kitchen, making my morning coffee, after cleaning the house and doing whatever else I could possibly do to "fill my time", I started thinking about how I've actually failed myself.
If you've been following my Instagram @purposealchemy, you would have known that I was so excited for this new year! I had so much planned in terms of my new coaching program, I was constantly trying to motivate and spread the same light to others. I was (and still am) looking forward to my coaching journey.
BUT, I've fallen into that scary rut of anxiety and fear, fear of failing, fear of never achieving my dreams. That sounds so silly coming from a mindset and success coach.
I mean, isn't that exactly what I should have mastered by now? Isn't that what I am supposed to help others overcome? Does that make me a fraud?!
All of these things were constantly flowing through my mind and it caused me to have to take a step back. Which I both enjoyed and hated by the way.
Now, before you lose faith in me completely, hear me out.
I've learned so much from these past few weeks! I've learned that above all else, you have to listen to your mind and body equally. If your goals take a little longer to achieve, thrive in that moment. Trying to rush through the process will only burn you out faster.
I've learned I need to rely on others just a little bit. Keeping your failures and your success to yourself in fear of judgement won't do you any good. I strongly believe you need an outlet, someone you can share your process with.
When you're feeling down and out about a certain milestone you haven't been able to reach, they will help keep you on track and remind you just how fantastic you truly are! I was keeping everything to myself, and these past few weeks have been exceptionally difficult because of that! Because I didn't have a support system that I relied on, I didn't have someone to keep me on track. This was completely crazy! I basically had to slap myself back into reality to be honest because I have friends and I have people who love me, so why did I feel I NEEDED to venture this exciting and amazing new journey all alone??
Never feel as though you have to travel your path alone. Ever.
I know that I've completely ghosted from my blog, which isn't something I intended or wanted to do. I would come on here, pull up a new draft, try and think of what to write but somehow I just wasn't inspired at all. I had just revamped my website to suit my coaching, which is completely different from the lifestyle blogger I used to be. So anything that came to my mind either didn't fit or didn't inspire me enough to put onto "paper".
I felt defeated.
I didn't want to post content filler, I wanted to love what I was writing and I wanted to make sure it was something of value, something my readers would truly enjoy. But my mind was completely blank.
That later resulted in less social media posting. I went from posting on my Instagram 2-3 times a day to posting maybe 2-3 times a week. I wasn't posting original content, I wasn't letting my viewers into my life like I should have. Instead I was closing myself off of social media all together, slowly but surely. I couldn't possibly think about launching my coaching program that way!
Which then, of course, led to me putting off my program launch entirely.
What should have been launched between March 24 and April 1, is still waiting to go live.
Something I am so proud of and so in love with is still being kept away from the world all because I didn't feel "ready".
Last night my boyfriend said something so important. He said in order for everyone to believe in you, you need to believe in yourself first, and even if you don't have 100% confidence in yourself yet, just start. So I am.
Mindset shifting and manifestation is something I am so fascinated by and truly believe in. I am so beyond excited to jump back in and utilize my new energy in a way that helps others realize their true potential as well.
Thank you so much for being patient and understanding while I took this time off to regroup. I've come to understand even more that it's okay to throw yourself into something completely, but it's also very important to listen to your mind and your body to ensure you don't burn out. I was focusing all of my time and energy on this program. Every single day I sat in front of this computer and although that did allow me to create beautiful content that I can be proud of, I also didn't leave myself any time or energy for anything else. My mental health was reverting back to what it used to be, my relationship was also affected.
I was basically creating a program on how to lead others to a more fulfilling and successful life while I was experiencing my own struggles. I couldn't possibly keep going. I had to clear my mind, I had to take some personal time to meditate and reconnect with myself again so that I can keep providing genuine information to help my clients the best way possible.
So thank you.
So what's next?
Well, my program is just about ready, but I'm not going to be setting a specific launch date anytime soon, at least not until it's perfected. I have some catching up to do to say the least.
My coaching program is still coming, I could never imagine allowing all of that hard work to go to waste, which is something I was so afraid of happening over the last few weeks.
I think I have taken just the right amount of time away to jump back in full force, which is exactly what I will be doing.
My name is Tay, I am a Blogger and Mindset Success Coach. I believe in manifesting dreams into reality in order to achieve the life you deserve, while helping others find the light in their life.
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